#we should throw a party or something

[everythingwasnormalhere]

drawings from last night ✨✨

I got a new sketchbook muahahahaha >:3 that kinny's probably the best thing I've ever drawn tbh, he makes me so happy :D

[del-stars]

“wolfstar is boring” = skill issue

[godisasimp]

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THERE IS A SECRET RAVE IN THE NEW BENDY GAME ? WHAT DO YOU MEAN INK DEMON IS HAVING THE TIME OF HIS LIFE ????

INK DEMON DID A BACKFLIP??

[giantkillerjack]

Uh-oh! You are like, SOOO awkward!!

You're so awkward that it is occasionally mildly uncomfortable for people!

You're so awkward that sometimes people are confused by you and then there are awkward silences!

You're so awkward ...... that ultimately no one is harmed!!

Oh damn!!! What a vile crime you have committed! What an unforgivable thing it is to make a fellow human briefly confused!

Why, if *I* were ever briefly confused and kind of uncomfortable as a result, I'd be devastated.... by the absolute net zero change in my happiness and health! - From which I might never recover!! Yes indeed! No punishment can ever be enough for you!!

So you better absolutely hate yourself for it.

Better be SO MEAN to yourself about every single missed social cue so you don't forget your horrible crime! Meaner than you'd ever dream of being to someone else for the same thing! This is YOUR responsibility!

You need to show the world that you KNOW you are bad by punishing yourself constantly! After all, think of all the people who BENEFIT from you punishing yourself! - No, really! Think about it! Think about who benefits from your pain.

Think of alllllll the definitely-good people that your definitely-necessary self-torment definitely helps! I mean, you can't just cut off their definitely-life-sustaining supply of your suffering, right?? Sure, everyone else has a breaking point, but you're probably the only person in human history who doesn't, right? Best not to question it probably. Sure, it's a symptom that billions of people with trauma have had, but who knows? You could be a one-in-seven-billion exception. Anything's possible!

Instead, better just accept that idea that bullies carry like guns in holsters - the idea that people who have trouble with social cues deserve to suffer. Better carry on the burden they placed on you until you drop. Aid the cause of the callous by enforcing shame and suffering upon yourself extra hard; try your best to do their work for them. They're very busy.

Better not recognize that you need patience and kindness to heal from your trauma. Better not find out that it was trauma rather than personal weakness filling your head with self-hating thoughts. Better not find out it wasn't your fault.

Better not find out that awkwardness is not inherently harmful or unkind, and, in fact, the people who act like it is *are the ones enacting harm and being cruel.*

Better not get righteously angry when you realize just how much unnecessary damage this has done to you. After all, if you get mad, you might realize you deserve better. You might even feel brave enough to DEMAND better! You might build boundaries that keep you safe! You might make other people think they deserve to feel safe too! And we obviously can't be having that, so...

Better not show yourself even a little kindness a little bit at a time.

Better not make a habit out of it after all that practice.

Better not get confident.

Especially if you can't first wipe out every trace of awkward. (And you probably never will. Because people who experience absolute social certainty at all times tend to be insufferable assholes that enforce the status quo. And you just don't have the stock portfolio for that.)

Better not be confident and awkward because then you might confuse and delight people

- you might accidentally end up making other people feel less shame for their social difficulties

- you might make isolated, traumatized, and shy people feel like they deserve to be included in social situations

- you might even make them feel they can be themselves around you

- you might start loving the effect you have on a room

- you might enjoy conversations more

- you might forgive yourself and bounce back from shame more easily and frequently

- you might come to enjoy some of those moments of harmless confusion you cause because NOBODY expects the Confident Awkward, and that can genuinely be an advantage in social situations

- you might stop apologizing so much.

- you might find that socializing is like a video game: it requires practice but also a safe space for it to be fun and positive.

Or if you can't become assertive and confident, better not remain awkward and shy and quiet, and then love and forgive yourself anyway!

Why, it would be carnage!!

In either scenario, you run the risk of finding out that it's not your fault that safe spaces full of kind people can be really hard to find, create, and nurture. You could end up building a skillset that helps you do those things if you're not careful!

If you start giving yourself even the tiniest amount of grace at a time, you will find that you've accessed a gateway drug with extreme long-term side effects:

- You might realize that it was never your fault that it took so long to like yourself.

- You might realize that you were always worth talking to, even when you didn't like yourself and communication felt impossibly difficult.

- You might realize that you'll still be worth talking to even if communication becomes harder as you age and/or experience disability.

- You might come to know that you deserve to be heard even on bad days when words come slow and blurry.

You might discover that you were always deserving of kindness, first and foremost from yourself.

So. As you can see, it's FAR too much of a risk to start granting your awkward self free pardons for your many heinous and harmless crimes. Better to just leave it there.

[quinn-pop]

happy Valentine’s Day remember to tell your favorite friendly penguin you love him

if you don’t have one of those then a friend is fine i guess :/

(kidding. go hug your friends <3)

[insanechayne]

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[rulesforthedance]

We are picking up Henry's ashes from the pet crematorium on Friday and I was saying something to N about how we were going to get Henry but he wouldn't look like Henry, and then the dog came over and showed me his belly and I started thumping it while saying "they crisped my boy! They crisped him! A crispy boy" in a silly voice, and N burst into tears

[fappellmoan]

WHY R PEOPLE SO MADDDDDDD THIS YEAR ABOUT A RYAN PIC

[imhereformysciencefriends]

Someone online: says something upsetting to me, with the purpose of upsetting me, on purpose, knowing it will upset me

Me, three hours later: we cannot continue to be upset about the fact that they wanted to upset me. We have chores.

[folklouire]

whenever there's a question post or a tag this with x or what is blah blah you don't like/ you hate and people tag taylor or harry i'm like wow you're so original and unpredictable

[francesderwent]

muahahahaha only two hours until voting closes on the spotify poll and I turn off reblogs 😈😈

[ghoulchurch]

The “should we throw a party should we invite bella hadid” tweet has genuinely stopped me from slipping into an ED several times at this point

[mikuhats]

oh no cringey transgender pansexual furry!!!!! i have to be different!!!!!!!! i have to say this feeds into transphobia more than fights against it!!!!!! because its CRINGE!!!!!!! <- everybody mass qrting a harmless post

[echolynnetelf]

No stream today and maybe tomorrow, my brain is still in FF14/PF2e brainrot and refuses to release me from its clutches till I get the details sorted out with what happened with my character in the session last night.

To best explain the shit that had the table go absolutely crazy at the table, here's some memes for the jist of what went down after clearing (we think) the first part of the floor:

Needless to say, my poor identity-theft of a samurai now has much more burn scars to add to the ever growing collection of 🌟✨️trauma✨️🌟 and self-hatred.

[aparticularbandit]

first two scenes of next agathian backstory chapter is done.

two-three-ish scenes left.  (potentially two; i may save the aftermath for the next chapter.)

one more chapter after this one and then back to agave stuff proper.  although probs gonna take a break for glass onion fam holiday special.

[always-a-slut-4-ghouls]

All I can do until we see what happens with this election is hope, distract myself, and try to get others to vote, because if I think too hard about it my anxiety and depression gets worse and the voice in the back of my head that tells me to hurt myself and go hide in the woods or something gets louder